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Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

posted at 10:54 PM

my results on regret!!
You tend to brood over your regrets Your regrets weigh heavily on you, filling you with bitterness and even suppressed rage. In fact, when you think about missed opportunities or things you have never been brave enough to do, you feel anger. You are angry at life, and at others, convinced that it’s external factors that prevent you from fulfilling your dreams. What you should realise is that you are the master or mistress of your own fate. So, rather than dwelling on the things you regret, ask yourself why you have found it difficult to achieve some of the things you really want to do. You claim that it is external factors undermining your plans, when in fact the truth might be that you are afraid of failure. If you always hide behind a façade of pessimism, and assume that nothing ever works out for you, then of course you never have to try anything new. So look back at where you’ve been, think about the dreams you have that are as alive as ever and forge ahead to achieve them. With enthusiasm and a positive attitude you can transform regret into success… and you will gain a lot from it in the process.

posted at 10:51 PM

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have low agreeableness.
Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all.
In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted.
And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently.

Neuroticism:

You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is medium.
You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.
But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.
You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

posted at 2:09 AM

You Are Death

You symbolize the end, which can be frightening.
But you also symbolize the immortality of the soul.
You represent transformation, rebirth of a new life.
Sweeping away the past is part of this card, as painful as it may be.

Your fortune:

Don't worry, this card does not predict death itself.
Instead it foreshadows the ending of an era of your life, one that is hard to let go of.
But with the future great new things will come, and it's time to embrace them.
Mourn for a while, but then face the future with humility and courage.

posted at 2:07 AM

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

hmm going 2 share abt smth tt my friend once told me not 2 long ago but did not post it cuz i wanted sum time 2 think abt it while i was in camp so here it is...
quote starts(it's hard to let your guard down again you dont want your heart to feel anymore pain altho you dont really care anymore cos youre so numb the pain doesnt even exist and any way that you try to twist the pain is still there altho you say you dont care but your lies become the truth and the truth is but another illusion for your problem there is no solution you lost your innocence long ago and that is something once gone cannot be claimed which is why you refrain from trying to be what you were for you rather suffer as you are than suffer going thru being what you are now from what you once were that is but a faded memory that remains black and white it's easier to just take your sight become blind and ignore it's easier to solve the problem if it is like before when it was not real then the only thing that remains is just to continue living life the way it is cos it's easier this way it's easier this way nothing is right when everything is wrong it's as simple as a song a poem has no conclusion in the end there is only confusion so what do you do now when you know it lies within it becomes a sin to just carry on there is nowhere to turn no way to return tothe past for what remains now is just a lone figure in the darkness there isno light so that what you are is not even an outline you have become what you were hiding behind the isolation is that even what you wantthe alienation from what you once were or are or what you have becomethe solitude the hiding behind books do you like who you have become?)quote ends.
To those who understands this which i doubt few of u who know my blog does this is not meant as an insult but rather me being blunt so sorry if this stings..Anwayz what that friend said is so near the mark yet so far yes this is my problem and reading 1 of the ways i try 2 find peace but that is what u call a break from my tiresome thoughts a way that i find the strength 2 move on.As close as it is the problem is not totally covered for i still keep secrets not everything i spell out and i wish 2 have my problems my own to solve the solutions myself 2 find out and i am sorry to those who i may have hurt/anger along the way and i wish for them 2 be understanding

posted at 10:38 PM

Friday, June 16, 2006

lol..i just finished reading lord of the rings again..some of my friends however are in a bad mood cause while reading i kindda ignored them i mean isn't that like ironical for because i am bored i am reading??
Bah!!This i getting difficult to handle but the temptation of a challenge is great fun lol??Life is but a game..If u hadn't notice i am begging to talk 2 myself rather questioning myslef more like and it is gaining a strong voice of its own smth is wrong when 1 talks 2 1 self isn't that the first sign of insanity?
Aniwayz the camp is tomorrow and i am better off dead for i know regardless of me going for the camp or not i will nt get ani gd posts nor go 2 sspec man i am about to start a self pity club here!!!To rub salt to the already nasty gash the sirs are promising us a hell of a camp for they find that our standard is lacking and this hell of a camp onli happened 3 years back...so basically we are screwed...the sad part is we know what is wrong but we cannot change it fate is 2 harsh on those who are in ncc...

posted at 5:12 PM

Thursday, June 15, 2006

alright!!! t minus 2 days before ldc starts.Damn this will be a bad 1,the old boys and clts are coming back!! well this shld be the final camp as cadets so i guess they will end it in a bang...LOL!!! The only gd news wld be that the clts and old boys coming back shld have outgrown their fetish for seeing us suffer i hope...
ah!! My group members in LDC project is almost as pathetic as pathetic can get and the only exceptions are kede(hardly) but seti is what a grp leader shld be organizing meetings and stuff though though they are unorganized but i guess beggers cannot be choosers.

posted at 10:11 PM

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

hmmm...just visited the collinandkero blog and i am totally caught with mixed emotions.No not because i am in luv with either of the couple but the fact that they are gay.In such a conservative society it takes great courage to do something as provocative.For that i admire them however have they thought of the negative impact they have on their family?I for 1 have no right to judge but regardless they should have been more responsible and kept it from their family juz so as to protect them from the pain.I do not condone nor do i oppose ppl from the same gender being together for that is their own sexual orientation but it wld be nice if the protect those from their acts of love the signal they are promoting is wrong.First of all we are in an asian society and they should respect others who wish that their children not be influnced by such lewd acts such as making out between 2 males or females for at their tender age most of their peers wld be of the same gender and they might think it is alright or more inclined to be homesexual if not bisexual.Also they appear 2 be so loving what will happen if they finally enter the army will they realise that it was just a phase they were going thru?what would happen den?

posted at 12:11 AM

Monday, June 12, 2006

hmm..Been told i do not trust enough but though i agree with them i do not know why i do not wish to change.ppl spill secrets 2 me when we chat but i am usually the 1 listening and nt telling much abt myself.Honestly i feel that i have been broken to a the size of an atom my confidence in myself non existent i am living in the shadow of my past the faith i have for another human being a joke..
I do not know how it got so bad but at least i noe it has gotten realli bad...My friends no longer know who i am maybe i should left the facade there so at least they will have smth 2 know me by.I think for i based myself on my facade for way 2 long i no longer know who i am animore.Also i feel that i have been left to fend for myself to early for i no longer find help to solve my problems i wish to solve them myself it is as though how ever messed up i already am.
solitude is my onli companion to find the answer in myself is turning out 2 be as self destructive as it is elusive .I honestly cannot remember the last time i laughed the last time i ever felt true emotions i no longer feel the joy of others onli enjoying the anguish and pain but as i enjoy it i try to help them how contridicting can i get?but everytime i do help them i sink further their negativity i take for my own haha!! i am a sadist but not to others but myself and everyday i hate myself more.

posted at 12:13 AM

Sunday, June 11, 2006

TO PART IS TO DIE AND TO LOSE A PART OF YOURSELF, TO REUNITE IS 2 DIE AGAIN hmm this quote i cannot agree more for when we part we lose apart of ourselves the memories will start to fade.How many of us are guilty of leaving our friends behind?How many of us do not treasure our love ones much less our friends?do we know how much we actually loved tt person?Upon the person leaving however close or near do we dare say we treasured them?Are special occasions needed to show the love u have for u loved ones?Must we wait for some day like father's day now?Have we degenerated 2 such a state where the love we have can only be shown when there is a reason?
When we part is that only when we realise how much that person means to us?Is it not 2 late must we wait till death to show enternal affection by visiting their graves daily or mourn the lost of them?when before the person leaves or dies we can show love that will last an enternity?When the person leaves us do they not bring along what the gave us during their presence and their legacy a shadow what they were?When the person leaves they do not die immediately but time will wipe them off our memory more shameful compared to not treasuring them when they were around?for i for 1 believe that it is nvr time 2 forget for to forget wld be to dishonour them and their legacy but if you didn't treasure them before does it matter?The closer u were to the person the bigger the part of urself u that will tear off urself.
When the person does come back however time will have changed the memory will no longer serve and will die for the person wldd be different.Many of those with broken relationships believe that if their partner returns everything will be the same again but go they not think?Do they not know that times changes all?It can bring down empires kill kings and flatten mountains why not change us mere mortals?Do they in their naive thinking believe nth changes?So many blogs with people who are asking nothing more for the return of their "lost 1"It is painful to see them suffering but they live in a land where innocence is all around they believe puppies nvr grow up and die and the while is filled with rainbows and butterflies.I do not know what is worse those who pretend to be broken or those who pretend to be broken and pretend 2 be strong...haha but that is best left for another rant.
I honestly wish that no1 has to part with some 1 they love but if they part and is for the better that they nvr find each other again for that will only serve to tarnish the image that they once left for one another for those who are reading this post treasure those whom u love or those who love u.To those lost souls stop looking for that missing person for the person u need is already there.

posted at 2:52 AM

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

ah!!!woot!!!finally back from ncc with an oreo along with 2nd sgt rank muhahahaha...The camp it self juz defined the meaning of the word pathetic i mean all we had to do was get the army ncc badge aka oreo and basically the rest is for internal promotion the tests we took there can be done in sch except for the stripping and assembling of the rifle because we are not allowed 2 draw rifles out of the camp after sep 11 damn it!!!Well the camp was an eye opener however we even came in contact with the infantry/gaurds and commandos woot those guys are like "WOW"i mean how often do u see a guy strip a rifle and assemble it within 25 seconds??They are also so confident of themselves that they are humble for they know they have nth 2 prove hmm did juz sound like a paradox?well being in close contact with the other schs showed ppl from all walks of life there are the spastic type who are like a 56kbps modem and the 10mbps ppl haha and some who are like mines waiting to explode while others as harmless as kittens..hmm the way tt they gave out the ranks i find is rather inaccurate and unfair for how do u judge the potential in some1 within 2 days??some thing sure is wrong there. there are many things that shld be left in the army and the foul language sure like hell shld be =x

posted at 12:16 AM

Saturday, June 03, 2006

haha...finally made it 2 another lvl in my guit muahhahahahha...alright this punctuation thing is really getting 2 me....But hey if 1 is needed why not give 2 while u are at it lol i am getting way lame...Ah the meeting 2day with beh was one heck of a waste of time i mean he cld have juz told 1 person and made tt guy spread the info but nooooo he had 2 call us back...Damn i knew beh didn't realli see the potential in me that is it even exist but what he said was like am i realli TT bad??Oh yeah and basically from the way he was handling the meeting it is like he already made up his mind on who will be getting the top posts and again i feel like a hypocrite and the emotions contridicting for all this time i been like so long i have enough cca points to get an A1 wld be enuf but yet i still feel that tinge of jealousy when ever i don't get to be an ic....smth is wrong with mi up there haha..but on the whole it is rather depressing for i have been trying 2 change all year and no1 seems to notice nor care and i am begining to have doubts if this change is worth it or not...i mean in the past i wldn't blink before saying F**K You to who eva that offends me and be basically give him a piece of my mind and giving myself to solitude has done nothing to help me clear my head and my circle of friends is shrinking hmm...maybe it is time 2 be all crazy again haha(love it when i sound this stupid)...I think i lost that feeling of pure ecstasy a loooooooong time ago and it is getting more elusive by the day!!!Ahh i realli have ought to find sum 1 crazy 2 hang out with...-.-"

posted at 10:03 PM