hmm i was walking back with a couple of exclassmates just the other day on friday and they were telling me how crappy their life is...how they feel that they are outcast ...how they feel that so called friends are bitching and backstabbing them...to cut a long story short its the whole nine yards...

it was kindda boring to hear but it was really interesting at the same time..i mean how long have they stayed on disneyland channel??come on the world is not just full of rainbows and pretty things so shut ur pretty mouth and learn how to deal with it...sure losing friends is a painful thing but pain can be willed away and if that person backstabbed u why don't u just fucking take it in and stuff a bullet down the person's frigging throat it is nt that such a big deal...as much as this is the most efficient way to end all these problems we are still human and my friends still gonna be niave and believe that it can be solved with a kiss and a hug...therefore they will end up sobbing and running back to each other and two weeks later the same problem occurs...well we are only human and though humans are nt stupid they let their emotions overwhelm them so 1 day machines will take over the world!!lol <---what i was thinking when i was walking back with them...

so now for the interesting part they can complain and complain and do nuts and when the perosn they supposed 2 nt like appears they will smile and act as though they are long lost pals...so i have come to the conclusion that they are either a bunch of hypocrites or they are just phonies and mean nth of what they say....and since they are bitching abt them to me are they considered to be backstabbers as well?? again is this an act of prospective...lol

why are they so childish??actually there so many ways to look at this...maybe they are indeed nt hypocrites but are just afraid to act on what they feel.. so you ask them to grow balls and somehow when they work up the courage to face the problem they lose it immedietely when that "enemy" becomes all soft and jelly like...so they will forgive and forget ...personally i prefer to forgive but nt forget...well the reason is simple by forgetting u are forgetting the lessons learnt and open to the same mistake again for as the saying goes to make the same mistake twice is to prove that u are stupid...den after that thinking that ppl do change they go let themselves be "backstabbed" and the process repeats itself and when they need a shoulder to lean on u lend them urs and the whole cycle happens again ...so i wld like to say
FUCK YOU DUMB FUCKS!!

If u feel u are inside this category of ppl i suggest u detach urself from the problem and look from it as a whole...and not fall into the traps as mentioned above...

well i after having my dinner today while i was abt to leave i just realised i left my wallet back in the hawker...so when i came back the obvious thing was that i was missing though i was only gone for 5 minute...well so i asked the store owner if he saw ani1 take my wallet and he said no along with the fact that sum1 might have seen it and took it away...thouh he said that he adviced me to ask the cleaners which i did he also gladly helped me though he was quite busy as well...
so i asked around and finally i asked the cleaner who cleaned up the table i was seated at...from afar he was nt the everybody person that i wld like to be with...oily hair and tattoos with chinese words with the literal translation human knife...from afar no1 wld doubt if he was a jail bird but he had my wallet and he returned it gladly to me without asking questions and asking for no reward for he walked away after returning my wallet to me nor did he take anithing from my wallet...
well it was the exact opposite of what happened on monday...from afar the friends i was with didn't look like ani1 who wld steal and do those horrible stuff but they do...maybe it is not how u educate them scaring them with the consequence telling them it is wrong for what my friends did they knew was wrong but they did not care...because of consequence one does not do smth does not mean that that person is good it just means that,that person is afraid for the true judgement of a man is what he does when no1 watches like the cleaner who found my wallet he cld have went away with my wallet along with my ic with it do god knows what...
cld it nt be the educating but the shape the society is in?what happened to the conscience of doing smth that u know is wrong?what happened to putting urself into another's shoe and feel how it is like...what happened to the saying do unto other what u want others do unto u??is this the result of competition where every1 wants the best for themself and themselves only?

well...it has been awhile since i last blogged so...well i can't be bothered to find out who that person is...if he had the guts to say what he did on my tag why not tell me in the face?? i admit i am nt perfect i have my flaws but who can admit that they are perfect??
ah...so anyways i was with a couple of my friends yesterday and it was kindda of a culture shock to find out what they do well i shall nt start my story from the ass of it..i went to sch for amaths class and after tt went to the school gym with them to work out and after that they started to talk abt smoking and how they miss smoking or how sweet the after taste is along with the price of a box of cigarettes and this and that well it was like some1 dropped a bomb shell on me it was suprising to find out that they smoke considering the fact that what i know of them is that they are "quai kias"(good boys) so like wth man...so after awhile we decided to go have lunch and on the way there they were deciding whether to go have "fun" and deciding if they shld use condoms at all...shocking but well luckily the idea was dropped for they were short on cash...
so after lunch we went to ntuc and well when we left they were all taking out chocolates and sweets,all petty items from their pockets i nvr thought of them as thieves though i did nt blow the whistle on them it was still quite disturbing at best...
what the hell happened to kids??why are we behaving the way we are??why do they steal??why are they inclined to smoke??we are all educated in the disasterous effects of smoking and right after we have juveniles at the age of 15 being in express and supposedly to be more educated doing what they are told not to and not out of curiousity but for the supposedly "pleassure" that it gives...like what went wrong man?why has the fabric of our nation appear so strong yet has a gasping hole in it?where did we go wrong??